Rainbow

Red and yellow and pink and green, purple and orange and blue... la la la..

I think that's how I sang the rainbow song during kindergarten.

雨停了，雨停了，彩虹高高挂...

Then, during primary school days we sang 彩虹歌. If I'm not mistaken, can't really remember too.

High school days, we don't sing anymore rainbow song, but memorize the order of colors in the rainbow. So we used, "Michael Jackson kena halau balik India Utara", which stands for merah, jingga, kuning, hijau, biru, indigo, ungu.

The other day, my student played a song called 'Rainbow' from Alfred piano level 2. The suggested method to remember rainbow colors is "Roy G. Biv", as if a person's name, which actually stands for "red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet".

Of course, there are many songs that's related to rainbow. To name a few, "Over the rainbow" (my favourite!), Rainbow connection, I can sing a rainbow, The spectrum song, etc.."

Suddenly I felt that rainbow always has a close connection to me.

It has been raining for the past few weeks here, hardly see the bright warm sun. Weather is so unpredictable in Malaysia. I love raining. I love the scent of rain, the symphony of raindrops, the feeling of rain gently hitting my skin. However, only once is a blue moon that we have the chance to see rainbow.

Wikipedia: Rainbows are optical illusions and meteorological phenomena that cause a spectrum of light to appear in the sky when the Sun shines onto droplets of moisture in the Earth's atmosphere. They take the form of a multicoloured arc, with red on the outer part of the arch and violet on the inner section of the arch.

When I reach home after a heavy downpour a few days ago, I saw rainbow faintly in the distant sky. Quickly I grabbed by camera and start snapping. Rainbow always makes me believe there's 幸福.

Last two nights, I had a dream about rainbow too. I remember I am very very close the the rainbow, almost touching it, and the colors are shinning brightly. But something has cut across the rainbow (like mist or cloud), so the rainbow doesn't looks curvy but a part has disappeared. It was a very weird dream, but I know I felt happy.
Em, can anyone interpret my dream?

Rainbow Tears by A.J. McKinley

Through rainbow tears I see love's true colors
Shining bright amongst them above all others...
Red, Green, Yellow, violet and blue...
All these beautiful colors I now see in you.

Love is my pot of gold,
Forever within my grasp
All I need are open eyes
And a map to complete this task.

And the storm will come of this we know
And darkness soon calls the show
Around me a rainbow of tears have spent.
My pot of gold to you have went.

And miracle is the day I found
My rainbow tears scattered upon the ground
My heart forever now is glad
Leaving room for light to replace the sad.

And to the dearest most sacred spot
My rainbow tears your hand has caught.
In this bond we shall forever rest.
Two souls combined for the rainbow test.

领悟

辛晓琪-领悟

我以为我会哭
但是我没有
我只是怔怔望着你的脚步
给你我最后的祝福
这何尝不是一种领悟
让我把自己看清楚
虽然那共爱的痛苦
将日日夜夜
在我灵魂最深处
我以为我会报复
但是我没有
当我看到我深爱过的男人
竟然像孩子一样无助
这何尝不是一种领悟
让你把自己看清楚
被爱是奢侈的幸福
可惜你从来不在乎
啊!一段感情就此结束
啊!一颗心眼看要荒芜
我们的爱若是错误
愿你我没有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出
就应该满足
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首来时路的每一步
都走的好孤独
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚任意追逐
别再为爱受苦

X.A.M

The fuss over Xam has finally reach double bar line.

It has been a week since Xam's appearance. Xam pronounced as /sæm/ (a.k.a Roger) is a Golden Retriever, approximately 7 months old (it's just my guess, but i know he's still a pup, not full grown yet). Last week while taking Max (A labrador retriever) for a walk, Xam turned up from no where. Xam was wet and stinky, must be lost for quite awhile. Then, he followed Max around, unwilling to leave. So, in the end got no choice but to take him home. Miraculously, Max befriended Xam instantly. Max is an unsocialized dog, he's a real loner. Anyway, they are excited with each other's company, but, to our surprise, no, more to a "sunny sky thunder roars" to Max's daddy, Max is trying to ... u know... show some 'affection' towards Xam. (In fact, a little too much of love..) How can?! Max is gay.. *pengsan* (I guess sodomization is the latest trend in my country now, Max is really up-to-date.)

Anyway, let's continue the story. Thus, both Max and Xam became friends and 'partners'. Initially we do not know what's Xam's name. Tried many names, eg: rocky, lucky, golden, baby, ah wong, chun choy, ahmad, fei cai, happy... He responded to none, except to stare at you in a blank face. As a result, I decided to name him Xam. It's the retrogate of Max, so Max and Xam. After a bit of training, he actually responded accurately everytime when I say 'Xam'.

Xam is a well-trained and well-taken-cared dog. How do we realized that?

#1: Although Xam was very wet and dirty when we first saw him, he has beautiful fur and clean ears

#2: Xam understood commands like 'sit', 'hand', 'come'...

#3: He is very patient and elegant when he goes out for a walk. Even when he pee and poo, you can tell that he's different from other dogs.

#4: His back legs and hip is a little crooked, the porpotion has a bit of problem, probably due to the type of floor he walk on since young is slippery. That's why his back leg looks a bit 'kang kang'.

#5: When I open the car door, straight away he'll slip into the car and sit diam diam at the back seat, which means he is used to go makan angin in the car. The worse part is to get Xam out of the car. He enjoys it too much, unwilling to leave the car.

#6: He loves to be groomed. Due to his fur is too wet and tangle, so I tried to use hairdryer to dry him. (Thanks to Valerie, I know slight knowledge on pet grooming. hehe.) He just sits still and follow whatever you wants to do. Right leg up, left ear, chest, tail.. He'll let you groom freely. Probably he's used to going pet saloon every week for his hair wash, spa routines.

See? From the evidences I've provided, it's not difficult to conclude that Xam comes from a well off family and he obviously don't know the way home. (Cause he never step out of the house without a chauffeur) hehe.

Xam is friendly, fun and has a big heart. He hardly barks at anyone, only heard once when he fought with Max to grab attention. Xam has a happy-go-lucky personality. He never keeps his frustration or sad if you scold him. (in another way, he's quite a dumb dumb. Scold also not scared!) On the other hand, he's quite naughty in the sense that he likes to chew and bite! haiyo, he's a huge destroyer. Materials from wood, metal, cotton, sponge, plastic... semua pun habis dimusnahkan. But still, he's adorable!! Heart melt when see him.. so manja... Oh ya, another of his hobby is sleep! (Just like phungy :p) The way he sleep is sooo cute. Ok, let me describe. Have you saw or ate roast pork before? Usually chinese roast a whole pork and used it as prayers purposes. When he lie down or sleep, he look exactly like the roast pork on the plate. Except that he can be a nice, warm, furry leg comforter. hehe. Cute!!!

Another of Xam's favourite activity is to play 'catch' with Max. A ball is thrown and the dogs are suppose to catch and return to the owner. Max is a champion in this game. He is fast, accurate and alert. He never missed his catch. However, Xam is always trailing behind Max and chasing around, not knowing how to catch the ball. I guess this is due to Xam's plump body (unlike Max's atheletic build) and Xam's a dumb blur dog.

In this one short week, Xam and Max play together, take walks together, eat together, sleep together, drink together, fight together, bath together, etc... at last got to know each other better. Then, this morning, I have unexpected visitors pressing doorbell. It's two guys standing at the front gate, claiming Xam is their lost dog. I was very blur (still in pajamas ler), and agreed to let Xam go with them. I thought I heard them calling him 'Roger'. Xam (roger) seems quite excited and did his signature rolling on the floor. Just like that, I let Xam go with them. I regretted a bit for not checking this matter more clearly. Should have asked him about Xam's characteristics or questioned on how they lost their dog.

Max seems to know his friend has left him and went back home. He's moody the whole day. Well, I missed Xam (Roger now) too. Missed his companion, naughtiness, beautiful coat, friendly eyes and blur look. I should have given the comb, bowl, chain, food, shampoo that we bought for him to his original owner. I missed him terribly when I look at his stuffs. Xam's one week escapades is over and I really hope that he enjoyed his stay with us. We will miss you, Xam! :)

- XOXO -